❛ as far as you know ! ❜ something lurks deeper ’thin these waters , shooting star ! something darker waits on the edge : go on , look closer ! see how image distorts with every word ? notice how fingertips clench themselves placid every step you take , every laugh that makes itself known ? the warning signs are there : take VIGILANCE , dear heart ! this world was only meant for the survivors , & so survivor she shall be should you PUSH HER far enough . take a step back , proceed with caution : these are the omen’s the universe bestows& still you will not listen. pause , yes , but only enough so that hand may extend, so that head may tilt in SYMPATHY : this world may have turned hard , but you , shooting star , have left room for TENDERNESS despite it . (tell me of how , & love too , will be your DOWNFALL . ) ❛k — kate ? are you . . . okay ? i was just joking , you know ! i — um , i can be supergirl ! if you want .you can just be regular ol’ kate! nobiggie . ❜
‘REGULAR ? ’m not … ’
you are the murky skies on a clouded night , abstract incarnate ; the stars cannot shine so brightly when you are present , for you are no more than the HATRED that made you . oh , have you so little hope that you will DROWN pure optimism , murder DREAM - LIKE INNOCENCE just to keep yourself GROUNDED ? pitiful as you are , you must take your POWERS in hand , look upon the young girl ( look ‘pon the child you never got to be , watch her STARTLE && FRIGHT , watch yourself shatter a fractured psyche into smaller pieces than previously thought possible - YOU ALREADY TOWER , staring from almost a foot above , THE POWER OF THE GODS IN YOUR SKINNYPALMS ; your sins , your INDECENCIES- unforgivable ) . oh , dear ; you , clouded starry sky ; you , broken bones in a scar - addled body ; can you truly believe you’re ANY MORE than what your father told you ? the world has bestowed upon you a CURSE , no more - your sharpened edges cut the soft skin of anyone who comes near . hidden as you are , you are still CHOKED by starlight .
‘- would ya believe me if i said y’were still dreamin’ ?’
heyo! my name's spencer! i'm 17 & from england. i go to college & i have a part time job, so please be patient with me! i also have a few mental health issues, but i'm trying my hardest! my inbox & ims are always open to anyone, whether it's to plot, ask questions, or just to chat! if you ever need to talk to someone, hit me up! i'm always here to help!
rules : personal
O N E -- no drama or hate, and no vagueblogging. i have severe anxiety and a delusional disorder, and i will unfollow you without warning if you vagueblog, even if it’s not about me (i may think it is). T W O -- please tag your triggers. this is quite a triggering blog, and i will tag accordingly with ’trigger //’ (tell me if i don’t tag something & i’ll fix it), and i’d be extremely thankful if you did the same! my specific triggers are: abuse, food, eating disorders, self harm, jump scares, ableism, and suicide. T H R E E -- if you have a problem with me, please tell me outright. it’d ease my mind massively & help me improve myself! i’m autistic & i struggle with intentions, implications, and tones of speech. i might mess up! i’m human! but i want to fix my mistakes. F O U R -- feel free to ask questions about me or my muse. i love to have the opportunity to inform & explain, and even to build more upon my character!
rules : roleplay
O N E -- please tag your nsfw. i don't roleplay it myself, & i don't particularly want it coming up on my dash. however, i'm not removing the possibility of kate having sex within relationships, and i don't want to limit ships because of this - i'm okay with fade to black/time jumps. T W O -- no godmodding. this includes playing my muse for me, or badly hurting or killing my muse without my permission. T H R E E -- kate’s timeline is very flexible. i can adapt it to most fandoms without the need for aus, as long as they're modern-ish (within about 30 years of the current year). F O U R -- this is a multifandom blog. i'm familiar with a lot of fandoms, and i'm more likely to follow/interact you if i'm familiar with your character's fandom & backstory. F I V E -- mun =/= muse. kate may do/say things that can be considered morally questionable/wrong. i, in no way, condone these acts. S I X -- memes, opens, and starter calls are open to anyone unless specified. i reserve the right not to reply if for any reason i do not want to. S E V E N -- i am so up for pre-established relationships. seriously. come @ me bro.
kate’s nomadic , travelling from place to place , mindlessly searching. she picks up girls in bars , drinks her pain away , laughs & shouts. under all of that ? she’s deeply depressed , traumatised. yeah , maybe she’s scared of getting close to people - SO WHAT ?
the scientist drew her in , tore her apart && put her back together in the wrong order. call it stockholm syndrome , call it trauma - he became her father. he trained her , extensively , turned her into a killer for his twisted cause , & died. & she misses him. kate’s a murderer , plain & simple - she goes from place to place to place to find people. somehow , it’s not her. it’s a hollow person , a vessel for his memory , a shell of a being. SHE DIED IN THAT LAB.
kate’s still in catholic high school , still being abused by her father , still using the excuse of boxing to get away with bruises & broken bones , still attempting to keep away from people who might suspect something. they all think she’s cool , because she’s always beat up & always swears & doesn’t give a shit what anyone thinks - she gets invited to parties ; she drinks & smokes & takes whatever people give her , stumbles home in the hopes that her father is already asleep. SUICIDALLY RECKLESS TEEN.
the night dylan’s parents kicked him out , & kate’s parents found out she was gay , her father got a job in america. he says it was a coincidence , but kate knows it wasn’t. the whole family move to america , & they shove her into a school there - say this is a new start ! that they can start over ! as if the move would cure her. but her father is , if anything , worse than he was back home. they’re not close to anyone in the u.s. , no one’s checking up - he’s free to hurt her however he wants , almost without question. & she’s TRAPPED UNDER HIS THUMB.
