txfofficial:

im the friend

 



"

WHAT ARE YOU MADE OF, KID?

7% flesh; bloody and raw. and human (or so they tell me). it doesn’t feel like that though. under my own fingertips skin is too sharp. i am too sharp to love myself.

45% smoke; it’s all fog inside – my skull, my lungs – i breathe out and smother everyone in two miles radius.

20% hunger; i will eat my rotten thoughts just to prove a point. pray for my body, for i will forget who i am, who i could have been.

28% agony; am i broken? i am not sure. but my bones ache.

" 

      — ^{sooner or later we perish; b.s.h; my new chapbook ROOTED - read on tablo.io}   



"PTSD sufferers don’t get to move on. This is how the disease works. Forgiveness, acceptance, inner peace–all of things are well and good, but at the end of the day, PTSD doesn’t care. You’re still going to jump when someone slams a door. You’re still gonna have nightmares. The trauma is not just a horrible event or experience. It’s a life sentence. It’s a burden that cannot be shed." 

      — Ever
(via heroes-get-made)  



"God should fear girls with battle scars.
Pretty little things with knives hidden in their smiles,
blood red lips and poison-painted nails. 
They’ve been to the gates of Hell - 
and the Devil sent them back,
armed and ready to fight." 

      —

God is so obviously a man, so the Devil protects her sisters

-

c.k

(via

widowbitesandhearingaids

)

 

deathisarose:

tomfordvelvetorchid :

*kisses your neck when the liquid lipstick is still wet so everyone #knows*

 



"Stop calling her pretty. She isn’t ‘pretty’. Pretty doesn’t even begin to describe her. She is so much more than that. She is kind hearted and heartbroken, gentle and dangerous, an angel one day and a she devil the next, intelligent yet silly, hilariously funny yet devastatingly sad, she is passion personified as a human being. Pretty isn’t even close. She’s a supernova that trails stardust in her wake, a constellation of contradictions plucked from outer space. And all you can think to call her is ‘pretty’." 

      — Pretty isn’t a Pretty Word | Nikita Gill (via untamedunwanted)  

fill out with muse info. 

name:    kate  sarah  lewis
alias:    kate    ,    katie    ,    phase
date of birth:    14th  of  november
languages:    english    ,    a  little  spanish    &&    german
orientation:    gay  af
occupation:    odd  jobs    ??
record:    nothing  recorded    (    crimes  committed  include    :    theft    ,    credit  card  fraud    ,    underage  drinking    ,    minor  drug  offences    ,    aggravated  assault    ,    &&    MURDER    )
disorders:    none  diagnosed    (    undiagnosed    :    ptsd    ,    alcoholism    ,    depression    ,   dissociation    ,    delusions    ,    paranoia    )

eye colour:    crystal  blue
hair colour:    dark  brown
height:    5′10″
scars:    almost  uncountable    ,    varying  depths    ,    spanning  every  part  of  her  body  apart  from  her  face
burns:    palms  of  hands    ,    soles  of  feet    ,    outer  elbows    ,    wherever  the  skin  is  hardest
overweight:    no
underweight:    a  little

song:    the greatest show on earth / we can dance - the feeling
food:    oatmeal  cookies

had sex:    yuhuh
had sex in public:    does  a  bar  toilet  count    ?
gotten pregnant:    thank  fuck  no 
kissed a boy:    like one
kissed a girl:    so many
gotten tattoos:    yes
gotten piercings:    ears    (    healed  over    )
smoked:    yes
drank:    yes
drugs:    only  recreational    ,    doesn’t  any  longer
been in love:    yes
needed surgery:    yes
stayed up for more than twenty four hours:    multiple times

a virgin:    nuh  uh
a cuddler:    so  much
a kisser:    oh  god  yes
scared easily:    not  really
jealous easily:    no
trustworthy:    yes
considered mean:    kinda    ???    she’s  a  bitch
thought of suicide:    yes
attempted suicide:    yes
fears:    surgery    ,    laboratories    ,    people  dying  because  of  her    ,    not  being  able  to  die

siblings:    none
pets:    none    ,    unless  the  stray  cats  she  takes  in    &&    feeds  count    ?

 

fathersgreatflood:

Reblog if your muse suffers from PTSD (severe or more mild, or even C-PTSD).

It is good to make your followers aware, because a muse having PTSD heavily influences the character and how they react and interact.

 

<sup>time    for    :    stupid  meta  about  how  kate’s  phasing  works    ,    since  i’ve  never  really  defined  it    !

phasing    (    v    )    :    the  ability  to  play  with    ,    interrupt    ,    or  otherwise  skew  another  person’s  perceptions    ,    specifically  in  relation  to  oneself  .    i.e.    to  change  one’s  appearance  in  the  eyes  of  another  .

to  utilise  this  ability  is  to  change  someone’s  view  of  the  world  .    it    is    a    specific    form    of    telepathy         -    using  one’s  own  mind  to  play  with  another’s    ,    to  change  the  way  that  someone’s  brain  perceives  the  world  around  them  .

kate’s  specific  way  of  using  this  can  range  from  literally  erasing  herself  from  someone’s  perception    (    thus  making  herself  invisible    )    ,    all  the  way  down  to  simply  blurring  some  part  of  her         -    depending  on  her  reasons  for  phasing    ,    different  variations  will  occur    :    to  obscure  herself    ,    she  can  blur    ,    distort    ,    or  even  erase  her  face  and    /    or  body    ;    to  draw  attention    ,    she  can  literally  exude  light    &&    colour    ,    change  the  brightness  of  her  features    ,    appear  to  be  a  source  of  light    (    think  lightbulbs    ,    fires    ,    the  stereotypical  depiction  of  angels    )  .    as  it’s  a  very  personal    &&    one - to - one  experience    ,    only  those  she  directly  focuses  her  power  upon  see  her  change         -    onlookers  do  not    ,    &&    thus  her  manipulation  appears  very  similar  to  a    HALLUCINATION    ,    or  shared  hallucination  in  the  case  of  multiple    ‘     victims     ’  .    when  visible    ,    these  people  can  see  her  as  anything  from  a    slightly    blurred    person    (    as  if  looking  through  someone  else’s  glasses    ;    think  harding  meyer  or  chuck  close’s  work    )    to  a    distortion    of    human    shape    (    certain  features  repeated    ,    inflated    ,  or  misplaced    ,    eyes  on  foreheads    /    cheeks    /    necks    &&    such    ;    think  francis  picabia    ,    kees  van  dongen    ,    once  again  harding  meyer    )    to  an    entirely    formless    being    ,    a  mess  of  swirls    &&    shapes    ,    or  just  plain  colours  as  opposed  to  anything  even  vaguely  resembling  a  human  shape    (    think  pablo  picasso    ,    frank  auerbach    ,    &&    shin  kwangho’s  more  obscure  portaits    ;    andré  masson’s  work    )  .

the  more  severe  the  change    ,    the  more  emotionally    &&    physically  draining  it  is  .    and    it    is         -    prolonged    &&    extensive  use  of  any  of  her  powers  can  leave  her  bed - ridden  for  days    (    this  is  rare    ,    &&    usually  only  occurs  if  she  has  used  her  powers  in  a  specific    ,    strong  burst  for  entire  days    )  .    shorter  strong  bursts  or  long  weak  bursts  can  both  lead  to  less  brutal  side - effects    ,    much  like  the  depictions  of    telepaths    /    telekinetics    due  to  the  fact  that  it’s  a    MENTAL    ABILITY         -    bloody  noses    &&    ears    ,    physically  weakened  body    ,    fainting  spells    ,    short  periods  of  confusion    &&    delirium    ,    &&    occasionally  temporary    ,    short  term  memory  loss  .</sup>