dicedup :

ok but lowkey every now & then kate gets a pang of my parents probably think I’m dead and they’re not even looking for me probably and that makes me sad

#; it’s like…  #; she’d love to say she never loved her parents  #; but she did  #; all those years where she didn’t know what her father was doing was /wrong/  #; the presents and the fact they kept her healthy  #; her mother’s kind words to her that only slowly became manipulative and vindictive  #; the memories of holding her mother’s hand as they crossed the street  #; so yeah. she HATES them. but it doesn’t mean she never loved them  #; and they loved her ; even if they didn’t show it how they should have  #; and the fact that who she loved in the end was the reason they didn’t even bother looking for her after she went missing  #; that really does hurt me  #; bc she and dylan didn’t stray far from Oxford for those six weeks and they didn’t see one sign for either of them  #; or anyone who recognised them  #; gAH I could ramble abt this for hours